Friday, May 11, 2012

WORDS FROM MY GRANDMA


WORDS FROM MY GRANDMA

Grandmas hold our tiny hands for just a little while, but our hearts forever. 
~Author Unknown

My grandma was everything to me.  She was the stay at home mom while my mom worked to provide for us.  My grandma was beautiful – like – truly beautiful.  The kind of beautiful that was so big inside, it sparkled out her eyes.

She was funny, and silly, and different.  My innocent eyes saw her as perfect.  She painted with me, did crafts with me, taught me how to shuffle off to buffalo, let me crawl in bed with her at night when I was scared and let me sit in her comfy chair with her and do word finds.  She let me lick the beaters, stocked my big wheel full of cookies and gum and refilled it when I’d pretended I’d “lost” them all.  She’d let me rub her soft, beautiful cheek.  My grandma had the softest skin – thanks to Ponds.  I’d feel the muscles in her arms and call her popeye.  She’d finish the food off everyone’s plates and still was small and slender, curvy and beautiful. 

My grandma made me feel safe.  There is no other word to describe how I felt with my grandma other than, safe.  Her love, her belief in me – the way she shared her soul.  I felt safe.

When she died, I no longer felt safe.  I was around 10 years old.  I’ve been working to find that safety since. 

I’ve felt her around me a bit more lately.  I wish I could remember what her voice sounded like.  I wish I could sit next to her and do word finds.  No talking, no fancy trips, no big treats – just sitting next to my grandma – feeling safe.  That was everything to me.

Now she is an angel.  I believe watching over her family.  I hope she is proud of me.  I hope she can see her beautiful great grandchildren, who would have just adored her.

These are some of the poems my grandma wrote for me.  She wasn’t on earth very long, but the impact she made in my life and in my heart is forever.



A granddaughter is someone
very, very special.
She can drink cool aid and have
the color ring adhere to her
mouth along with the chocolate chip
cookies, even after washing.  In
spite of this colorful array, she
still manages to be the most
beautiful little girl in the
world.
She puts on Grandpa’s shoes
and Grandmas scarf and carries
an oversized handbag, and is
all ready to go for a walk.
She will crawl up on your
lap and ask you to tell her a
story, and you find you still
remember, word for word – The
Three Bears, Sleeping Beauty and
Cinderella.  As you speak, she
listens as though you were a
great orator.
The songs she loves to sing!
You can sing “Ring Around the
Rosey,”
and “Jesus Loves Me”, as
if you had sung them every
day instead of the time lapse
of almost twenty years.
Spring is newer, summer
is more beautiful, fall more
colorful, and winter a little
warmer, just because she’s
around.
When she says, “Grandpa
and Grandma, I love you” –
We’re the richest people in
the world.
She’s three years old
today – our granddaughter,
Michele
Happy Birthday little one,
With all our love
Grandpa & Grandma Dishong

Granddaughter

Oh Michele –
The wonder you’ve given our lives.
A spring day is now alive with newness.
Summer, always hot, now bright with
flowers and butterflies.
The Autumn, so lonely, now full of
bright leaves and little squirrels.
And Winter, ah the cold, is white
fluffy snow, full of laughter.
The days aren’t long enough to
share each new wonder of you.
Oh Michele –
God Bless you – our very dear.
-         Alice Dishong

Christmas with Michele

Let us come into your
world, Michele.
On this wonderful Christmas
day.
To hear your laughter, darling
Michele,
As you go about your
play.
We’ve not forgotten, dear
Michele,
What it’s like at Christmas
time.
It’s in the back of our hearts,
Michele.
Almost lost in our daily
Climb.

For it’s not too long –
Only a moment –
A blink of an eye –
And it’s gone.

Let us come into your
World, Michele.
That magical childhood
Land.
Share our past joys with
us, Michele.
In your Christmas
wonderland.

Grandma

Saturday, May 5, 2012

The Flower Super Moon 2012


"The moon is a loyal companion.
It never leaves. It’s always there, watching, steadfast, knowing us in our light and dark moments, changing forever just as we do. Every day it’s a different version of itself. Sometimes weak and wan, sometimes strong and full of light. The moon understands what it means to be human.
Uncertain. Alone. Cratered by imperfections.” 
― Tahereh Mafi


On May 5th-6th, get ready for moonlight! The full Moon is a special moon, as much as 14% bigger and 30% brighter than other full moons of 2012.

Associated with this beautiful, big moon are:

Colors: Red, orange, yellow
Gemstones: Ruby, garnet, amber, Apache tear
Trees: Hawthorn, rowan
Nature Spirits: faeries, elves
Herbs: dittany of Crete, elder, mint, rose, mugwort, thyme, yarrow, cinnamon
Element: Fire
Flowers: lily of the valley, foxglove, rose, broom
Scents: rose, sandalwood
Stones: emerald, malachite, amber, carnelian
Trees: hawthorn
Animals: cats, lynx, leopard
Birds: swallow, dove, swan

Genesis 1:14 "And God said, Let there be lights in the firmament of the heaven to divide the day from the night; and let them be for signs, and for seasons, and for days and years:"

Luke 21:25 "And there shall be signs in the sun, and in the moon, and in the stars"

It is the perfect time to surrender anything that you do not want to hold onto anymore.  Let go of old thought patterns and negative emotions that do not serve you.  Whether you write them down on paper and burn them or pray them away – let them go.

Write your wishes, hopes and dreams down in your journal.  Then set it on the windowsill and know that God and the universe will take care of it.  God knows your heart.  Trust that your wishes, hopes and prayers will be answered.

If you have personal stones/crystals don’t forget to sage them and put them out for regenerating and renewal.

As for me, well, I will be letting go of all expectations.  Expectations I have of myself and of others.  I will live in the moment and let go of what I think I should be feeling and just – feel.  I will let go of the fear of abandonment I have and accept that I am never alone.  God is always at my side, my angels all around.  I will stop looking outward for answers and will be at peace in knowing that God has already given me the answers - in my heart.  All I have to do is be still, and listen.

And as always, I will Choose Love.  <3